Another day gone by. Determined to do more, but keep putting things off. Gets frustrating as I know my time here is limited. There will be lots of regrets eventually.

Trying to push things forward, have great hope for the Exeter Respiratory Innovation centre http://eri.org.uk. #eri. It will however require a lot of work. We need a pathway for new projects, and a continuing conversation with all respiratory departments in the regional hospitals.

The web-site is available, just needs maintaining with new information as it comes in.

There needs to be a small group to verify and validate projects before they get added to the web-site.

A lot has happened

 Can‘t believe how long it‘s been, but as only a couple of people see this blog, I guess I‘ve not been missed.

It seems that the one of the tools that academics use to progress in their careers is the amount of grant funding they have received for research projects. When they apply to a post at a university they use their past success in applying to for funding to bolster their chances.

Sadly this results in the researcher often losing interest in the project once the funding has been received - especially those projects which require a lot of actual work to get going. Although all funding grants will require progress reports and reports on completion, it is relatively easy to ‚fudge‘ such reports to give an illusion of progress, or to find excuses for a lack of progress.

This can have a detrimental effect on other people, especially collaborators, who often put a lot of effort into the project, and have high hopes that their work will have long term benefits only to find that the lead investigator has moved on to other things.

There needs to be a way to encourage real progress. To encourage but also monitor benefits. 

Testing emergency services - they work well

Haven‘t been feeling well for a week or so, total loss of appetite, pains all over, and sharp pains in my head.

On the Thursday started feeling better and was able to eat again.

I was doing the LFT Covid tests and they were all negative.

Saturday morning I was sat in the kitchen having some breakfast when I suddenly felt a bit giddy. Next thing I knew I was lying on the floor and someone was talking to me on my watch.

It took a little while to realise what had happened. The ‚Fall Alert‘ on my watch had automatically dialled 999, and also sent text messages to my emergency contacts. The 999 responder was trying to find out what had happened - had already called an ambulance, but said that if I had a way to get myself to the hospital I shouldn‘t wait.

My son and daughter arrived within a few minutes - they both live fairly close, and my daughter drove me to A&E. She was mainly concerned about a lump on my head where I had hit the floor, otherwise I seemed to be OK. At A&E I was triaged within a few minutes and they started on blood tests, ECG‘s and a lot of other tests quite quickly. Even had a CTScan of the head.

All in all I was in hospital for about 5 hours. Nothing found that would explain anything. I surmise that my blood sugar was very low which caused the collapse. 

My consultant thinks that was also probably the case.

My appetite isn‘t good but is getting better with the help of some high protein drinks and soups.

Getting some pain relief

 At last I‘m getting some pain relief for my back. Taking Codeine - just 15mg a day at the moment, and it does seem to be relieving things. 

Had a great meeting yesterday with Daisy Campen and Gina Awad about getting some University student support for the work she is doing - with the Cosy Routes and anything else.

On Saturday went over to Laura Wall in Teignmouth where I was able to buy one of her prints and several bottles of Christmas gin - for presents I might add. Had lunch at The View. 

I‘ve had a lot more energy in the last days. Getting little things done.

Just had an invite for another Arena Session with Chris Scotton, Sarah Lines and Prof. Gibbons. I hope it brings some benefit - won‘t be until February or March. I think I‘ll have to practice what I‘m going to say.

Going to the burial of Meg Leng on Friday. It‘s at a natural burial ground near Totnes. Not a church or religious ceremony. Will be an interesting experience I think. I wonder whether I‘ll be ok there. Sounds like it might be a lot of standing.

Have a session with physio-therapy next week.

Extending the concept of the MDT into the day to day management of complex medical care.

Currently there seems to be a division between the role of the GP and the role of the specialist consultant.

Where a patient has an ILD condition, eg IPF, this may lead to a heart condition or, depending on the medications involved, possibly a liver or kidney condition. Each of these will be managed by different consultants, and so far as I can see, there is not always a huge amount of communication between the disciplines. It is also, more significantly, not clear which of these consultants should be the ‘lead’ contact point for the patient when faced with a change in symptoms, or a deterioration in condition.

Logically you would think it should be the GP who is managing the interactions and who should be the primary contact point for the patient.

This is turn raises the question of whether, for complex cases, there should be a single doctor or senior nurse, who effectively is a ‘named’ contact for the patient.

Another gap

 A lot has happened - but also not a lot has happened.

Terry Lowther passed away last week. He had Sarcoidosis but not sure of what actually caused his death. He was still a councillor right to the end.

I‘m still struggling on with the illness. I get frustrated, seem very impotent. Want to do a lot more than I‘m actually capable of. I think I‘m not capable but I feel guilty for not trying harder. Spend all my time on my computers procrastinating rather than actually doing stuff.

Sometimes very depressed, but most times very content with my life. 

Recently I keep getting the feeling that I‘m just going to pass away in my sleep. Just not feeling very well sometimes, and get very giddy sometimes.

Hoping to get caught up with outstanding jobs soon. Have been into the office a couple of times, and will be going in again tomorrow late morning, till early evening.

Feeling a lot better

 Been feeling a bit down just lately. The pains in my back have been quite bad, making it difficult to even stand up straight let alone walk anywhere.

A couple of days ago though thought I would try something which someone recommended a long time ago but which I’d never tried - turpentine oil. It was recommended as a cure all for everything including the IPF so I wrote it off originally as just a quack remedy.

I looked it up again and one of the things it is said to do is relieve pain. I ordered it, and yesterday it arrived. Rubbed some on the small of my back, where the pain is seated. I have arthritis in my lower spine.

Just 24 hours later I feel a lot better and although I’m very stiff still, the extreme pain when I walk has eased. 

I have a feeling that if I can ease the pain to be able to move more freely again, the additional movement will itself lessen the pain, and stop it getting worse.

Have to decide now whether I should be getting out to attend meetings again. By the end of June I have two gatherings I should attend - one an ‘away day’ with the staff of the nursing academy, and an informal day in Cambridge with APF.

The weather is a lot better now, but not blazing sunshine. Makes life seem a lot better though.