At the Arena Session at the Medical school, one of the students asked the question - why do I keep going, why don't I just give up.
The context being that this IPF is incurable and there is no sign of a cure, and as any new drug needs several years of tests, trials, and decision making before it can be used - what hope is there for me, as I've already been diagnosed for over 5 years and the median life expectancy after diagnosis is 3 to 5 years.
This was further compounded by a conversation I had with the lead researcher at the medical school and my consultant on Tuesday, We were talking about the fact that some therapies give short term benefit - make you feel better and give a better quality of life, but have in fact been shown to actually speed up the progression of the disease.
Most notably steroids in the case of IPF, although they are still widely used long term for PF, but also Pulmonary Rehab, this is one I've been worried about for some time, and also possibly supplementary Oxygen.
My own theory is that using supplementary oxygen encourages people to do more physical exercise than they should and consequently overstretches the lungs, causing more scarring - in the same way that pulmonary rehab does.
Back to the original question - why don't I just give up? I guess it's just in my nature to just keep going, it's possibly being in a perpetual state of denial. It's easier to sit in my office behind a desk keeping myself occupied, than sit and home worrying, and you never know, I may help someone find the elusive cure.
I admit though, I do learn a lot about the disease every time I meet with others who have knowledge of the disease.